Trying to do your best...

This week has been unusually hard. I think ever parent dreads the day their child comes home and says they are being bullied or picked on. I think it's even harder when you know something is bothering your child, but they won't tell you what it is. Things had been this way for a week and I was going crazy and finally on Wednesday, it all just came out.

My son got off the bus looking like a sad lost child that just broke my heart. He spoke the words all parents hate to hear, they are picking on me. He had reached his limit, he had tried to hide it from us but could no longer go on without help. Isaiah is a very caring and loving child that I think the Lord has great things in store for. He wears his heart on his sleeve, wants to help everyone, doesn't want anyone to be upset with him, hates to be in trouble, hates when another child is sad and he can't help, he worries about others, he reaches out to others, and even in not telling us what was going on it, was his way of protecting us. This is what hurts him in school, he is an easy target...the nice Isaiah, the good grade Isaiah, the quiet Isaiah, the one who gets to help the teacher.

The sad part is in this crazy world that I'm trying to raise my kids in there is a lot of mean. Every night I pray for them and as they leave my sight I send up another prayer, that I'm giving them enough at home to guide them through out their day, but sometimes I feel like it's me against the world.

Roo is different and I have other concerns with her but being pushed around is not one of them. I wish Isaiah had a bit more of that in him but then again it's what makes him the loveable Isaiah. We are looking into something like Tae Kwan do to help with his self-confidence because he could use more, but I just hope he stays my sweet Isaiah. I think the world could use a lot more of him out there making their marks. I pray everyday that the Lord will guide him and use him, give him the strength he needs to stay the way he is in this world.

I have been in contact with the school and what was the worst case of them picking on him, he didn't even tell me. I found out from another mom...some may look at this as I'm spoiling him, not making him tough enough, need to let go...but he is in 2nd grade and his spirit has been broke. I can't just sit back and let him handle it. If some things are not changed on Monday, I'll be at the school on Tuesday.

Now I wasn't going to post any of this but this morning I caught Dimond Rio's "God only Cries" video and of course I broke down. For those who have already went home, but also because it was just a reminder to me that God has been with Isaiah this week, he hasn't been all alone.

As for knitting, I'm still working away on the Southend Hobo, it's not the fast project I thought it was lol.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend : )